It’s been a month since I moved into my new home. The excitement of finding this home, the feeling that this was the ONE, passed. I’ve been feeling lost, alone, angry, not feeling the warmth and safe haven of my last home. Change is not easy and I think the older we get the more difficult it is to adapt.
Nothing has gone smoothly from the delivery of my bed and mattress, missing slip covers on my new couch, but there were two events this past week that set me into a “manic panic” mode as Richard would call it.
Sitting at the kitchen table on Sunday, journalling, I heard a thump and immediately thought, oh, no, a bird hit the window. I went outside to take a look and I could see it was a hummingbird, it had a green chest, it’s wings were fluttering. I didn’t know what to do. I’ll admit, I’m squeamish. I was texting my girlfriend who was giving me suggestions. My number one concern was to keep Sophie in the house, second concern how to help the poor thing. Several minutes passed by, can’t say how many, I went back out to check on it and it had flown away. Yay!! it was just stunned. Sigh of relief as I still didn’t know what I was going to do. I had also been texting with my sister who mentioned, it’s a sign, what is the meaning! I know hummingbirds are messengers. So what was the meaning behind it flying into the window . . . .
The other event happened earlier in the week. One of the things I loved instantly about this house was the light, both natural and the lighting in the kitchen which was so bright. Well, several days ago I went to turn on the kitchen lights and it was dim, almost no light at all. Major manic panic! What is going on, is there a wiring issue, do I need to change out all 5 canned lights, manic panic. Finally on Saturday I called the home warranty company and put in a request to have an electrician come out.
So this morning, Monday, I went to switch on the lights, but this time I had my glasses on, are you ready, it’s a DIMMER switch!!!! O-M-G. Let there be light!!!!! Texted my sister, okay, here’s a good laugh . . . . ha ha ha, she responded, are you listening, another symbolic message!
I have the POWER to shine my LIGHT, do not DIM it! I have put up barriers (the glass window the hummingbird flew into), it is time to break through the barriers, let my LIGHT SHINE!!!
Oh, yeah, the electrician, I have a few other things I want him to check out so it’s all good!
Learning a new home, learning my new path in life, lesson, be gentle with yourself.
Mantra, breathe in calm, breath out manic panic! Go with the flow! Love the light bulb, LOL, moments!!!